Well, it has been more than a month since I turned 21 and yeah, this "still cute little" (I don't think I am cute) girl has turned 21.
People have constantly asked the "usual" questions: what is it like to be 21? Practically an adult now, can you make decisions?
What is it like to be 21 you ask, I say NO difference. I run the same routine as was when I was 20, I don't think I suddenly became mature over a year, I still behave like a child sometimes, talk like one too, never want to make my own decisions, still daddy's little girl, so yeah nothing has changed.
Some part of me hope somethings will change, but another likes the way things are at the moment. Then again, change is inevitable, it will happen soon. Am I ready? I am not sure, but I will, I hope someday. Turning 21 is not going to give me all the answers and maturity suddenly, its what I have learnt till I turned 21 will and what I am about to learn.
So to all those questions, I am still the way I am: still learning, still changing, still exploring:)
ps: I had a sms on my birthday from a friend: You are old enough to vote!
Old enough, yes; mature enough, I wonder!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
I have my bed and my teddy tonight, what else do I need for a good night sleep!
2 weeks away from home, I began to appreciate the wonders of being in the comfort of home and familiarity.
As I go through the pictures and the talk about my trip to another land, other details float in my mind.
The power of language. Speaking a language not known to others around you so that you can pass info the those who do understand. How my dad and I talked about so many things and people around us just eavesdrop although they don't understand a single word we say.
The some sign of happiness we get when we meet some one there from here, although we are surrounded by own relatives there.
The fact that we still have good and obedient drivers here!
How most of us don't even know how our neighbours look like.
:)
2 weeks away from home, I began to appreciate the wonders of being in the comfort of home and familiarity.
As I go through the pictures and the talk about my trip to another land, other details float in my mind.
The power of language. Speaking a language not known to others around you so that you can pass info the those who do understand. How my dad and I talked about so many things and people around us just eavesdrop although they don't understand a single word we say.
The some sign of happiness we get when we meet some one there from here, although we are surrounded by own relatives there.
The fact that we still have good and obedient drivers here!
How most of us don't even know how our neighbours look like.
:)
Monday, February 2, 2009
The journey
I have always loved traveling by trains. By this, yes, I also mean the local public transport system trains. True, people have complained how bad the trains are at times, I have enjoyed most of my rides:)
The times where I have had random people smile at me, the times where I randomly play with kids next to me and have people stare at the title of the book that you're reading ( I had people trying to read the back cover too). The times where I get squashed between people due to my height, how some passengers scold other passengers who get into the train without letting others disembark first, how most people check their phones as soon as they get into the train and the random conversations I had.
But most of all, I enjoy just sitting and starring thorough the window. Looking through the clouds and the mind wanders to a far away land. The present does not matter anymore. Not even the people around you. I love this moments. It gives a certain pleasure that we tend to miss everyday. The only time, where you rule everything. There is no limitation what so ever.
And I thats what I did today!
And I thats what I did today!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
A week ago..
Exactly a week ago, the big day that we all have been waiting and planning for months finally came. The conference, EAMSC 2009! Months of planning and discussing over and over again the timetable, never getting past discussing Day 1, Day 1 was here. People were flying in from all over and we were still doing last minute preparations.
As for the conference, the lessons learnt was priceless. Well, it was not about learning on the illness per say, but more about how to make a change and creating awareness among public particularly youths on HIV/AIDS. The sessions were impactful and powerful. It really makes you want to do something- make a change. It gave me a whole new perspective on approaches in creating awareness. Besides that, I realized that, there is no point in waiting for others to make a change, it all starts within us. If I can take a small step and do something, someone else might follow suit-a snowball effect-will definitely have an impact on the community and society. As some of us were discussing the other day, our plans to put what was learnt during the conference to good use, many difference ideas came up. All I hope is, no matter where we are, all these ideas will be carried out successfully.
I have made friends from all over, got souvenirs, exchanged name cards and had lots of fun but most of all, I have learnt many new things that will change my values, principles, purpose, perception and the person I am. I have found the courage to make a change and definitely move on from there. Taking small steps.
On the whole, I never went to medical school thinking that I will be part of a conference let alone help organise it, but here I am. Much of things learnt during the conference is not something that we would get in a classroom environment everyday. It is not about what was being taught but more of what you feel of what was being taught. The experiences I gained will always be a part of me and who I am.
The most important lesson, no matter where you are: It's not the illness that kills, its the stigma!
4 days of conference was pure fun. Meeting people of different culture, norms, values and principles. 200 over students coming from different backgrounds and sharing their experiences is one in a life time experience. What is bigger than that is the fact, that we organised the conference with no knowledge or little knowledge on how a conference was done was amazing. And today to look back, at what we have achieved and done, I think we all did a fantastic job and deserve a pat on our backs. Although there were minor glitches, on the whole the conference was a success. From where I stand, I realised at some point or rather, doing only what we have to do is not sufficient. Stepping up and helping others would mean a lot to them, I have learnt. And best of all, nothing beats working together as team. The sense of connectedness that was present was invaluable. Not just among other delegates, but also among us, from the same university. I got to know some of my seniors better and for the first time spoken to some. All this while, it was only a smile along the corridor or an hello, but working with them was a whole new experience. And to see everyone leave their differences behind and work hand in hand was amazing.
As for the conference, the lessons learnt was priceless. Well, it was not about learning on the illness per say, but more about how to make a change and creating awareness among public particularly youths on HIV/AIDS. The sessions were impactful and powerful. It really makes you want to do something- make a change. It gave me a whole new perspective on approaches in creating awareness. Besides that, I realized that, there is no point in waiting for others to make a change, it all starts within us. If I can take a small step and do something, someone else might follow suit-a snowball effect-will definitely have an impact on the community and society. As some of us were discussing the other day, our plans to put what was learnt during the conference to good use, many difference ideas came up. All I hope is, no matter where we are, all these ideas will be carried out successfully.
I have made friends from all over, got souvenirs, exchanged name cards and had lots of fun but most of all, I have learnt many new things that will change my values, principles, purpose, perception and the person I am. I have found the courage to make a change and definitely move on from there. Taking small steps.
On the whole, I never went to medical school thinking that I will be part of a conference let alone help organise it, but here I am. Much of things learnt during the conference is not something that we would get in a classroom environment everyday. It is not about what was being taught but more of what you feel of what was being taught. The experiences I gained will always be a part of me and who I am.
The most important lesson, no matter where you are: It's not the illness that kills, its the stigma!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Where I stand
From where I stand, I see it differently, but it does not make any difference, no one will see what I see, because there are not standing where I am!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Its 2009!
After days of countdown, its finally here...2009!
Good bye 2008.
Hope 2009 is filled with happiness, joy and laughter:)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
It will come
As Natasya asked: Do I only blog if I am bored? If that was true, you should know that I am really not bored now (judging from the number of posts lately). So, am I bored? Maybe...
Well, I only blog, when there is a need to, and mind you, this " need's " attendance has been bad lately. But, it is slowly making a come back... So wait...
And, I can't get this song out of my head...
Bubbly- Colbie Caillat
I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place
It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that I adore
It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
What am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm
It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth
It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go, I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while
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